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Never Made it Home

by Bowers

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1.
Long nights alone Thoughts nurtured in solitude Much needed suffering approaches no matter what we do Clouded by uncertainty Fear that has misguided me Is lost all we're doomed to be and will we ever see And if I chose to stay would you still need me And if we find our way how long can we stay Decisions made and prices paid A strange belief in childish fate And if I chose to stay would you still need me And if we find our way how long can we stay
2.
This millstone Something close to nostalgia but closer to regret Recoil in fear at things that I've made myself forget A closed of place Long abandoned Stirs a feeling that could never have a name This millstone around my neck Won't you take it back Won't you take it back At this point emptiness seems like a dream Nothing could ever lessen the sting This millstone around my neck Won't you take it back Won't you take it back I'll just let the fear decide for me Take the path of least resistance
3.
Pushing forward all this time Still no end in sight Waiting for the sun to set snuffing out the light Still missing things that I have never known Still waiting for things to come and go And after-all I only made it so far Repeating over in my mind again Always dreaming something would change the way it's been And after-all I only waited so long Pushing forward all this time Still no end in sight Waiting for the sun to set snuffing out the light Barely waking Wondering if I'm still alive Sitting shotgun waiting for my turn to drive And after-all I only fought so hard Am I still thinking clear thinking fate could reappear Am I still thinking straight Who could rely on me Waiting for the end to begin
4.
Youth 00:50
5.
Oppressor 02:52
Push you down and wait for you to breathe in the water This time's worse than before No one to blame when they find her I need more Another way too You hurt more and I'll put you back together Becoming the oppressor Leaving you out in the desert to forget your face I need more Another way to hurt you more so I can put you back together I think that I might need to let her go The weight that's on my back can't let it grow
6.
Busted Lip 03:38
I'll ask you to hit me hard Will you watch me crash again I'm through right from the start Show you where the fuck I stand before I fall down again Wasted and alone Never made it home Wasted and alone I'll bet you wanna hit me hard Hoping that we crash again Confused with heavy hearts Not quite sure just what it meant Just take some time to think about what you did Busted lip
7.
Where have I gone to this time Promised something only to be denied But what I don't know how the fuck should I know Maybe this is what life is on the outside I smoke through cobwebs but I know it's only a distraction But maybe I won't.. what it takes but I'll never admit it I guess I'll learn to like it either way but I'll never really know if I'll ever feel a balance But still I wonder when with any way we go will it ever feel any different I will keep on waiting for the fall
8.
Bitter 03:08
Wait I thought that you were the same Me I'm not as cold as you seem With time comes loss and pain but I never thought I'd see you become so bitter Spit out that shit you've chewed on for days The taste that you just can't seem to rinse With time comes loss and pain but I never thought I'd see you become so bitter
9.
Room for Sin 05:41
Heading straight to the straight and narrow Cold and dry, somewhere i don't know Fleeting thoughts of sinking below and letting go Keep coming into the place that we've been Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin before they make us leave again Hating having to find some control Shitty feeling always in tow Being dragged down by the undertow and letting go Keep coming into the place that we've been Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin before they make us leave again They'll make us leave again Heading straight to the straight and narrow Cold and dry, somewhere i don't know Fleeting thoughts of sinking below and letting go Keep coming into the place that we've been Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin before they make us leave again
10.
Slowly letting go but never noticeably Never answering my calls but you always call on me Wishing you could find a way to connect with me and tell me who the fuck I'm supposed to be Oblivious to fate A love that I've watched fade away Fond memories slipping out of my reach Trying to forget what you've made of me You know that I can't take the way you tease me Oblivious to fate A love that I've watched fade away Life's a bitch who just won't give you shit Falling in and out of love and always taking your breath away On your lips you can still taste the kiss of a life that you once loved that keeps on taking you're breath away
11.
We're left to find ourselves Betrayed by light that keeps us from seeing The wasted time spent searching for you left me feeling blind and so uncertain And now I'll say never again will I stand at you gates Though I've been told you'd never leave me I'd sell my soul to shut you out All I recall was pain and silence I swear I'd never let you in Limiting our lives from what could have been Drawing senseless lines, keeping us from what we're needing Spending countless days searching for the answers better spent than praising a ghostly idol And I'll still say never again will I give you my praise Though I've been told you'd never leave me I'd sell my soul to shut you out All I recall was pain and silence I swear I'd never let you in Though I've been told you'd never leave me I sold my soul to shut you out All that I know is pain and silence I swore I'd never let you in
12.
Unbridled 03:58

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Bowers is:
Julian Zidarevich Guitars/vocals, Mike Jones Guitars/vocals, Brian Mojica Bass and Connor White Drums.

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released August 16, 2016

Recorded and mixed by Scott Goodrich at Nu-Tone Studios in Antioch California
Mastered by Mike Kalajian of Rogue Planet Mastering

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