Never Made it Home

by Bowers

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Bowers is:
Julian Zidarevich Guitars/vocals, Mike Jones Guitars/vocals, Brian Mojica Bass and Connor White Drums.

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released August 16, 2016

Recorded and mixed by Scott Goodrich at Nu-Tone Studios in Antioch California
Mastered by Mike Kalajian of Rogue Planet Mastering

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Track Name: Guilt & Doubt
Long nights alone
Thoughts nurtured in solitude
Much needed suffering
approaches no matter what we do

Clouded by uncertainty
Fear that has misguided me
Is lost all we're doomed to be
and will we ever see

And if I chose to stay
would you still need me
And if we find our way
how long can we stay

Decisions made and prices paid
A strange belief
in childish fate

And if I chose to stay
would you still need me
And if we find our way
how long can we stay
Track Name: How to Stay Silent
This millstone

Something close to nostalgia
but closer to regret
Recoil in fear at
things that I've made myself forget

A closed of place
Long abandoned
Stirs a feeling
that could never
have a name

This millstone
around my neck
Won't you take it back
Won't you take it back

At this point
emptiness seems like a dream
Nothing could
ever lessen the sting

This millstone
around my neck
Won't you take it back
Won't you take it back

I'll just let the fear decide for me
Take the path of least resistance
Track Name: Snuffing Out the Light
Pushing forward all this time
Still no end in sight
Waiting for the sun to set
snuffing out the light

Still missing
things that I have never known
Still waiting
for things to come and go

And after-all
I only made it so far

Repeating
over in my mind again
Always dreaming
something would change the way it's been

And after-all
I only waited so long

Pushing forward all this time
Still no end in sight
Waiting for the sun to set
snuffing out the light

Barely waking
Wondering if I'm still alive
Sitting shotgun
waiting for my turn to drive

And after-all
I only fought so hard

Am I still thinking clear
thinking fate could reappear
Am I still thinking straight
Who could rely on me

Waiting for the end to begin
Track Name: Oppressor
Push you down and wait for
you to breathe in the water
This time's worse than before
No one to blame when they find her

I need more
Another way too
You hurt more
and I'll put you back together

Becoming the oppressor
Leaving you out in the desert
to forget your face

I need more
Another way to
hurt you more
so I can put you back together

I think that I might need to
let her go
The weight that's on my back can't
let it grow
Track Name: Busted Lip
I'll ask you to hit me hard
Will you watch me crash again
I'm through right from the start
Show you where the fuck I stand
before I fall down again

Wasted and alone
Never made it home
Wasted and alone

I'll bet you wanna hit me hard
Hoping that we crash again
Confused with heavy hearts
Not quite sure just what it meant

Just take some time to think about
what you did
Busted lip
Track Name: Waiting for the Fall
Where have I gone to this time
Promised something only to be denied
But what I don't know how the fuck should I know
Maybe this is what life is on the outside

I smoke through cobwebs
but I know it's only a distraction
But maybe I won't..
what it takes but I'll never admit it

I guess I'll learn to like it either way
but I'll never really know
if I'll ever feel a balance
But still I wonder when
with any way we go
will it ever feel any different
I will keep on waiting for the fall
Track Name: Bitter
Wait
I thought that you were the same
Me
I'm not as cold as you seem

With time comes loss and pain
but I never thought I'd see
you become so bitter

Spit
out that shit you've chewed on for days
The taste
that you just can't seem to rinse

With time comes loss and pain
but I never thought I'd see
you become so bitter
Track Name: Room for Sin
Heading straight to the straight and narrow
Cold and dry, somewhere i don't know
Fleeting thoughts of sinking below
and letting go

Keep coming into the place that we've been
Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling
Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin
before they make us leave again

Hating having to find some control
Shitty feeling always in tow
Being dragged down by the undertow
and letting go

Keep coming into the place that we've been
Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling
Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin
before they make us leave again

They'll make us leave again

Heading straight to the straight and narrow
Cold and dry, somewhere i don't know
Fleeting thoughts of sinking below
and letting go

Keep coming into the place that we've been
Keep coming in, I think I'm finally feeling
Keep coming in, there's still room for some sin
before they make us leave again
Track Name: Life (Taking Your Breath)
Slowly letting go but never noticeably
Never answering my calls but you always call on me
Wishing you could find a way to connect with me
and tell me who the fuck I'm supposed to be

Oblivious to fate
A love that I've watched fade away

Fond memories slipping out of my reach
Trying to forget what you've made of me
You know that I can't take the way you tease
me

Oblivious to fate
A love that I've watched fade away

Life's a bitch
who just won't give you shit
Falling in and out of love and always
taking your breath away
On your lips
you can still taste the kiss
of a life that you once loved that keeps on
taking you're breath away
Track Name: A Ghostly Idol
We're left to find ourselves
Betrayed by light that keeps us from seeing
The wasted time spent searching for you
left me feeling blind and so uncertain

And now I'll say
never again
will I stand
at you gates

Though I've been told you'd never leave me
I'd sell my soul to shut you out
All I recall was pain and silence
I swear I'd never let you in

Limiting our lives from what could have been
Drawing senseless lines, keeping us from what we're needing
Spending countless days searching for the answers
better spent than praising a ghostly idol

And I'll still say
never again
will I give
you my praise

Though I've been told you'd never leave me
I'd sell my soul to shut you out
All I recall was pain and silence
I swear I'd never let you in

Though I've been told you'd never leave me
I sold my soul to shut you out
All that I know is pain and silence
I swore I'd never let you in